23 weeks 3 days

First of all I am excited to have made it this far. I seem to be having lots of Braxton Hicks contractions. I talked to my OB about the whole scar tissue and breastfeeding deal and she said that I need to make an appointment with the Nurse Practiotioner who is also the laction consultant there. I am hoping things will work though. I seem to only leak from 1 breast and it is the one that doesn't have the big scar tissue on it so I am sort of freaked about that. We have an appointemnt on Monday for another ultrasound to check her heart and stuff out and make sure she's still a girl, lol. Starting next week I will be at the office every week for the rest of my pregnancy. Kind of scarey to think about.

I have a new background and I am super excited about it! I need to get back to blogging and be fun again, lol. There are a few bloggy ladies that I am just so excited for so I thought I'd tell you to go over and share in the joy they have going on. Sonja just brought home Liam a few days ago, the first of her quads to come home and that is huge. They will all be home before she knows it! Rachel just got the call last week that her family was growing by 1 and her story of those first days is just amazing.

The good: Still the movement. I love it. It makes everything so real. It helps me feel better about things when I get worried and it reassures me that she is in there and growing. my belly is growing and I love it. You can tell I'm pregnant more and more all the time.

The bad: I have so much trouble getting to sleep. I just can't get comfortable. Between my belly and my flare that won't quit I just can't seem to be comfortable enough to not toss and turn all night long.

The ugly: The heartburn. It effing sucks.

22 weeks 3 days

I am turning into a bad blogger. I am not good at commenting these days and as you know just generally sucking at updates. Today I read quite a bit of good news on some of the blogs I read and want to just tell everyone that I am thinking of you and really, really hoping that things work out for you ladies and your families!

The good: D moves all the time. Like, all the time. She is going to be a partier, lol.

The bad: heartburn, not being comfortable when I try to sleep.

The ugly: moodiness. Yay.

21 weeks 3 days

Things have gotten boring. I feel like there is nothing really to post. I have my very first completely routine (I hope) OB appointment this Thursday. No ultrasound, no freaking out, no pelvic (fingers crossed). Just measurements, weight, heartbeat, and questions. I have a few for them. My biggest concern is breastfeeding. I had nipple piercings and they are closed up but the scar tissue isn't so great so I am a little concerned as to whether it will work out or not. Also we have a mini-vacation planned for September but I start weekly progesterone injections in a few weeks and I will be around 32 weeks for that trip and I just need to be sure that we will be OK for a trip around 5 hours away. I will also start having weekly growth ultrasounds and non-stress tests at 32 weeks so it should be very busy!

The good: D moves alllllll the time! T even feels her sometimes. You can tell that I am pregnant, that is if you know me. We have been shopping and gotten her some really cute stuff. I will have to post pictures of some of it along with her bedding set.

The bad: heartburn. This girl better have a crapload of hair is all I can say.

The ugly: My emotions. I have banned myself from many things, like country music and lots of shows because I can't stop crying sometimes.

18 weeks and what I've got a'cookin'...

We had our anatomy ultrasound yesterday. It was a Level 2 which pretty much meant that the MFM OB did part of it. She got all the measurements she wanted and said things are looking great!!! We also found out that we are expecting a sweet little girl!

The good: we know what we're having, Shopping and BEGIN!!! I feel good. Hungry all the time, but good. She moves around quite a bit now, it feels super wierd.

The bad: nasal congestion. It sucks!!!!!!!

The ugly: I tend to be a hormonal mess, lol.




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This is why people google dream interpretations

PREGNANCY!!!

I have been having lots of odd dreams about the baby. I never go full term in my dreams. The baby is either born at 28 weeks or 32 weeks but is completely healthy and can go home immediately. I dream of a little girl with dark hair and dark eyes just like T and she is absolutely beautiful! The dream I had a few nights ago she was born at 32 weeks and she was 15 pounds 7 ounces. What the eff!?!?!?!

I am pretty sure that these are all fears of mine and maybe my mind telling me that everything will be alright no matter what happens. I am terrified of early labor and the baby being in the NICU because it absolutely sucks and I don't want it to happen again. I would love, love, love a girl and even though my intuition is saying girl, I fear that it will be boy because I say I want a girl. Not that I don't want a boy too. Another sweet little cutie who loves his Momma like crazy! The huge baby thing, I know that is because this GD thing has me scared that our baby will be huge. We keep joking that Blaine will be sharing clothes with the baby it will be so big.

We will see our baby in less that 48 hours!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

17 weeks, almost half.way.there.

We are sosososososososo clooooooosssssse to half-way there that I can taste it, lol. Literally. Because you better believe that I will be scarfing down sweets and carbs as soon as this kid gets out. We have our Level 2 ultrasound next Thursday at 17w6d. We are hoping that we can gind out the sex that day.

There was a small scare on Tuesday. I was having some pretty intense cramps and a few days before had a little mucousy blood. I called the OB and they said to get in right away. They did an ultrasound to check my cervical length and all that good stuff. Cervix looks great, no funneling so woohoo for that! We took a peek at the baby and it was so cute, it has grown so very much. We got a picture of it's head and torso and a little leg. The spine stood out so perfectly. Then we got a picture of and arm and hand. I love this kid!

Something that I hadn't really thought about happening was the jealousy that I still feel toward women who get pregnant so easily or on accident. I just can't help it. Atleast it's not towards people I know these days. Mostly the girls from high school who are 23 or 24 and on kid number 4. Fucking 4! Are you shitting me? Anyway. It's weird, kind of makes me feel odd.

The good: Little one is moving around. Not a ton, mostly just rolling around. We are super close to knowing the sex of the baby. We already have names all picked out!

The bad: As usual, constipation. I can't sleep on my stomach comfortabley. I have constant pelvic pain, I guess since things are spreading.

The ugly: My emotions are out of whack big time. Anything can make me wanna cry. We saw a dead dog on the road a few days ago. I teared up because it had a collar on and since it had a collar on that meant it was someone's pet and somebidy was gonna be so sad when they realized their doggy wasn't coming home. I'm crying a little now just thinking about it.

16 weeks. wow.

For some reason I can't believe I am 16 weeks, we are less than 2 weeks from having our Level II and hopefully finding out the sex. B is super excited about the baby and constantly thinking of it. He even wanted to rent it a movie at Blockbuster a few nights ago. I am sooooo excited!!!!

The good: My belly is getting bigger and harder. I feel the baby, in fact I just felt a big thump. I love it. it seems like I get flutters when T touches my belly, I think maybe becuase my heart starts beating faster or something, lol.

The bad: Constipation is back and with it has come cervical bleeding every now and then. Freaks. me. out.

The ugly: I am moody. Yes, still.