A- areola, I study them daily and ask myself, are they bigger? darker, maybe?
B- bitchy. Every one of you knows exactly what I mean. Whoa hormones!
C- cervical mucous. I check it. all. the. time.
D- dildocam. Gotta love it.
E- eggwhite. the reason I check my cervical mucous so often. I need to seee it.
F- fucking with purpose. I have always believed in this, now there are just 2 purposes.
G- goo. Tons of different kinds of goo. My goo, his goo, fake goo, real goo. Dr Seuss so could have written books for infertiles.
H- hell. I feel like I am there a few days a month. In my hell you just cry and feel alone, like noone identifies with you.
I- infertile. I bet you are surprised, huh?
J- jumping up and down. I do this when I get a smiley face. Then I stop, because I don't want to jump the sperm out of the egg.
K- killer headaches. I thought I was immune to the Clomid headache. Oh was I ever wrong about that.
L- love. Infertility is making me realize just how much I love T and B.
M- moved to tears. I find that atleast 1 story a day moves me to tears.
N- never. I am at a place I never thought I'd be doing things I never thought I'd be doing. It is very humbling.
O- ovulation. The thing you have to do, but don't do, or maybe you do. You can just never do it good enough and there is no way to train for it. Sucks.
P- POAS (peeing on a stick). I love it. I. am. addicted. I pee on OPKs like they are going out of style then I pee on HPTs starting at about 7 DPO. Boy am I embarrassed that I told you that.
Q- q-tip test. I just discovered this last month. It's how I knew to expect AF. It's gross. And embarassing. And fun.
R- rara! Sometimes I like to pretend to be a cheerleader for the sperm and my egg. You have no idea how awkward it is to cheer for both teams.
S- sex. On the couch. In the bed. On the floor. Pretty much anywhere. Who cares as long as it works.
T- taking charge of my own care. I had to do this, don't be surprised if you do too.
U- uvula. It's all I got, lol.
V- vagina. Very important.
W- wicked witch. I have turned into a wicked, evil witch with all of this bitterness and hatred I have going on.
X- xray. I got one and it hurt. Ok, it was an HSG but still.
Y- youth. I long for it. Those days when things were great and I had no idea the rollercoaster ride I was in for.
Z- zee end. ahahahahahahahaha. I'm sooo funny.
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