10 Weeks

We have come farther than last year!!!! Yay!!!!!!!!! We are 1 week away from seeing our baby as well as 1 week from telling B that he is going to be a big brother and then telling everyone else. I had other stuff all typed up then lost the post so if I remember it I will be back.

The good: The usual.

The bad: I smell everything that smells bad so strongly!

The ugly: I am super moody.

Joining a club

I am joining a club of awesomeness. I have terrific pregnancy migraines. I thought I was dying yesterday. Terrible. That is all.

9 weeks

FINALLY!!!!!!! It takes forever it seeems to get to Sunday of every week. Not a lot going on around here. We went to the University of Louisville spring game on Friday. I told T that I am not sure if I am going to be able to make it to a game this fall, that makes me sad because this is the first year that he has season tickets and they are awesome so I am gonna miss it.

The good: My boobs just keep getting bigger and bigger.We are only 3 weeks from telling everyone and 2 weeks from seeing the Turkey again!

The bad: I have a killer headache. I can hardly move. When I move or bend over then I feel like I am going to puke and pass out. People are treating me like I am glass. I'm not.

The ugly: I don't know. Maybe the fact that I feel like I need something sweet everyday and ice cream is my preference.

And here is some sad. It will be 1 year on Wednesday that we found out that the baby we thought we would have was no longer alive. I am terrified. Only 1 week away from 10 weeks which I was when we found out. I will post more about it when I can think it through and figure out what I want to say.

Julie and Julia

I don't think I have posted anything about this movie before. I watched it for the first time several months ago when it came out on DVD. I fell in love. I love to cook and this movie is my new obsession now that it is on Starz. There are so many great parts and I love Meryl Streep. I know that any of you fellow IFers out there know why I am writing about it though if you have seen it.

There is 1 small scene, and it is amazing how much a short few seconds can make such an impression. For those of you who don't know *spoiler alert* there is a scene where Julia receives a letter from her newly married sister saying she is pregnant. Julia is so stunned that she has to sit down. She tells her husband and begins to sob. Then tells him that she is just so happy, but you can tell the heartbreak she is feeling. This is something that we are all so familiar with. The thrill of someone close being pregnant but the sadness knowing that you are not. Even as a preggo I still bawled and just felt all of that over again. That heartbreak. I was right there with her.

I know this was a pretty much pointless post, but hey, I was thinking about it.

8 weeks

I was 8 weeks yesterday. With the EDD changing all the time it seems like this is lasting forever!!! I am very excited that we are just 3 weeks away from our next Turkey sighting! It's great to know that the next time we see the baby it will look like one. A really, really great friend sent me a doppler that she used at the beginning of her pregnancy and I got it last week. I won't even try to use it for another week or so but I am very excited about that too!!!

The good: My boobs are HUGE! When I sleep, it is soooooo good. There is a baby in there. No more spotting or cramps. I am thinking boy. Weird, but I am.

The bad: There really is none to report! That is exciting!

The ugly: My cravings. Really?! 8 weeks and I am already craving things. STEAK!!!!! I want it all the time. A nice juicey steak sounds good like all the time.

A sigh of relief

Everything was great! The baby measured 7w3d so my EDD has changed yet again to 11-21-10, only 4 days from my birthday on the 25th. I was so happy to see it up there on that screen, I was also sad tht T was not there with me. The baby (who I feel is a boy) had a heartbeat of 158 and was wiggling, it made the tech laugh when she saw it. I love this little turkey. The tech gave me 3 really good pictures for T to see, 1 close-up and 2 farther away. It is amazing how much bigger it is!

Super

I have my follow-up with my OB tomorrow after my OB history appointment. I will have an ultrasound then have an exam. That is just super, except for the fact that I will be alone. Not too sure how I will handle having an ultrasound all by myself. What if it's bad? What if the baby died? What if it is going to die? What if there is something seriously wrong? How will I ever get home or even be able to call someone to come get me. T can't come because he is trying to build up his vacation/sick/comp time at work so when the baby comes he has plenty of time to take off if need be. I'm just scared. I honestly don't want anyone else to go with me aside from T, so I guess I'd rather risk it alone than ask someone else. I just don't want someone else to know anything before T does, if things are great I want to call him first. If something is wrong I want to tell him before I even think of anyone else.

We saw our sunflower seed last night

We had a small scare. I started to cramp really bad and the cramps were radiating through to my back and there was a little spotting. I freaked but tried to pretend like I was calm. We took a trip to the ER and everything was fine. The baby measured at 7w1d so 1 day ahead of schedule and it's heartbeat was 146. The tech even saw evyething from on top first then went inside with Mr. Wandy to check out my ovaries. Obviously the cramping and spotting is from the corpus luteum (sp?) cyst that every pregnant woman has. The tech said mine was just a little large, but that is fine. No cramping or spotting really since then and the spotting was so super light that I almost wasn't sure it was there. That is how it started with my miscarriage though so I was super scared. Seeing our baby and hearing that wonderful heartbeat was the best thing in the world. Nothing could have been better. I call Turkey-Lurkey a sunflower seed because that is it's size right now. So tiny!

7 weeks

Freakin' finally!!! It feels like I have been pregnant forever and I am only at week 7. I guess knowing for almost the last month does not help that at all. I am wondering if I should call the RE even though he didn't do anything for me aside from tell me I am overweight. I may call and just see what they say. All day yesterday felt kind of weird for me, last year I was almost 8 weeks and we had our first appointment. They confirmed the pregnancy so we mass-texted (yeah, I know, classy) everyone to tell them. I remember the day because we thought everyone woud think it was a joke for April Fool's. This weekend is Easter and last year I was pregnant for Easter too. The only difference is that not many people know and won't for quite a while.

Yesterday I got my March Secret Pals package. I was sooooo excited. I will take a picture and post it shortly. it was kind of like she read my mind, lol.

And now, our regularly scheduled programming.

The good: Once again, still pregnant. No morning sickness. No more constipation. Sleep is gooooooood. Filet O Fish from McDonalds, oh freakin yum!!!!!!!! We found the cutest little onesies and bought them because they are unisex and we knew they wouldn't be around much longer.

The bad: Emotions. These weeks are going by sooooo slow. I have been having cramps and they scare the shit out of me. Heartburn blows.

The ugly: My attitude freakin sucks. I go from nice to bitch instantly. Our house is a wreck. Dishes make me gag and dry heave. Cravings, when I want something it is the only thing I can eat without feeling like it is going to make a return appearance or waste half of it.