Monday, February 8, 2010

Nothing witty to say

I hate that. I don't even know what to say about the start of my 21st cycle.

I'm excited because I have an HSG scheduled for Monday and supposedly they help you be more fertile. I will be taking my Clomid and now taking metphormin to help with ovulation. I got pregnant this cycle last year. It could make for lots of happy memories to take over all of the bad ones.

I'm scared because it could end up as a repeat of last year. Not what I want going on. I'm afraid that my heart will be more broken by this busted cycle than anything other because it was my cycle last year. I'm just scared.

I'm sad because I will constantly be worried about the baby if we do conceive this cycle. I'm sad because the last one didn't work. I'm just sad.

I have hope, but these days it is just so little that I don't know how long it will last. My HSG is scheduled for next Monday. I'm scared. I'm afraid of what they'll find and about how it will feel. I have heard lots of difrent experiences. If you had one, fill me in please!


cheryllookingforward said...

I hope that HSG will help you out.

I know how scary it is when you know you could have a repeat of last time. I'll be here to help you through it. xoxo

Leda said...

Cheryl, you have me in tears with your sweetness. I know that all of you will be there to walk me through it.

AKD said...

Leda, you have every right to be scared! Scared that it won't work, and scared to not know what will happen if it does! We all understand, and are here for you!

Browniris said...

I had an HSG in December, and it was not that bad. I was expecting the worst. I took 600mg ibuprofen about 45 minutes before I had the procedure done. They will have you change into a gown and lay on an x-ray table. It sucks because you will likely just have to spread your legs instead of putting them in stirrups, but that wasn't too bad. I felt some slight cramping, but it wasn't too bad and it was over quickly. Make sure you wear granny panties and bring a pad. They will give you a pad to use, but it will be a bulky hospital one. They said some people have cramping and discharge for up to a few days, but mine lasted a few hours at the very most. The nice thing is that the tech should be able to show you your pictures and explain things to you as soon as the test is over.

GL and I am sorry to hear about the brown goo. I hate it when that appears!

Leda said...

Thank you so much! I really, really, really appreciate your take on the HSG. I will be having it done in the radiology department at the hospital and was wondering what it owuld be like. You answered ever question that I had and I hadn't even thought of the granny panties and pad. Thank you BrownIris, thank you so much!

Mandy said...

Hi Leda,

I found your blog info on BBC. I had the HSG procedure done last month. I am a big wimp when it comes to pain. It really wasn't that bad. It felt like menstural cramps. It was more uncomfortable because of the position you have to lay in. They told me there was a chance of being more fertile after it, too. My husband and I have TTC for 1 1/2 years with no luck and about 17 days after my appointment I got a BFP. I believe that HSG really did the trick! The great thing about the HSG is you get immediately results right then, so no more waiting games, at least with that test! Good luck to you!

Leda said...

Thanks a lot Mandy! I am getting great advice from you ladies and feeling a little better about the procedure, especially with your BFP coming right after like lots of ladies I know!

Anonymous said...

I realize this is a little late, but I think you still haven't had your HSG. Mine wasn't too bad, but I think that's because the lab tech and the nurse had both been through infertility, and had both had HSGs, too, so they really helped walk me through it. The radiologist basically walked in, said go, said you're fine, walked out. I cramped and it felt really strange, but it wasn't as painful as I'd been led to believe. I did almost pass out twice as I tried to sit up afterwards. The nurse finally told me to just lay there and we talked about infertility and our lives, and it was kind of nice. She was the first person I'd ever talked to who had been through infertility on her own.

I'll second the recommendations to take a painkiller right before hand and to bring a couple of pads.

Good luck, I hope it goes well!