Thursday, March 25, 2010

Freaking the fuck out

I am really, really, really starting to freak out. My ultrasound is scheduled for tomorrow at 9 am and I am soooooo scared. I even took another test today to make sure it is still darker. Today's $Tree test was darker than the control line so that made me feel good about it. I am just so scared that there will be nothing there or that there will be no heartbeat or something else crazy like that. T wants to have friends over on Saturday because he is planning on smoking some babyback ribs, but I told him we can't invite anyone until we know how things go tomorrow. I am just to scared to make plans. I also have an interview tomorrow afternoon at 1 and I am terrified that I am going to have to cancel it because I get bad news. I have been telling myself over and over that I was not going to freak out about this but now I suddenly am and T is not. He is so confident that things will be fine, that it couldn't possibly happen to us again. Oh. my. god. I am flipping out. I don't even know if I will be able to sleep tonight. I know I will get up super early in the morning. I'm so scared to go that I kinda wanna forget about it.


guffsheart said...

Leda, breathe... Everything will be fine. Tomorrow you will get to see the newest addition to your family for the first time. It will be amazing. Just remember to breathe

AKD said...

Sweetie, it's so normal to worry. This is your first chance to see your baby - I was so panicked that I wasn't going to see a heartbeat. You're going to do great - we're all here for you.

Suzy said...

remember to breathe! It is scary, I know. WE have all had those nice naive rose tinted glasses ripped from our eyes and we know that things can go wrong and it is SCARY.


The vast majority of the time things do NOT go wrong! I have faith, my darling, that the ultrasound will reveal one healthy, darling little baby with its heart fluttering away.

Just remember to breathe...

Jenn said...

I'll be thinking about you, and hope that you see everything is perfect. I'll be waiting anxiously for the results tomorrow.

Busted Kate said...

Good luck, I am sending some serious prayers your way. I know this feeling, and understand your worries. Hopefully everything will be great, and I look forward to your good news tomorrow!

And good luck at the interview too :-)