The many ramblings of an Infertile Myrtle who is sometimes to jealous for her own good.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Freaking the fuck out
I am really, really, really starting to freak out. My ultrasound is scheduled for tomorrow at 9 am and I am soooooo scared. I even took another test today to make sure it is still darker. Today's $Tree test was darker than the control line so that made me feel good about it. I am just so scared that there will be nothing there or that there will be no heartbeat or something else crazy like that. T wants to have friends over on Saturday because he is planning on smoking some babyback ribs, but I told him we can't invite anyone until we know how things go tomorrow. I am just to scared to make plans. I also have an interview tomorrow afternoon at 1 and I am terrified that I am going to have to cancel it because I get bad news. I have been telling myself over and over that I was not going to freak out about this but now I suddenly am and T is not. He is so confident that things will be fine, that it couldn't possibly happen to us again. Oh. my. god. I am flipping out. I don't even know if I will be able to sleep tonight. I know I will get up super early in the morning. I'm so scared to go that I kinda wanna forget about it.