Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Some stuff

First of all, thank you everyone for the congratulations! And thanks to whoever submitted my news to LFCA! That was so sweet! It was nice to have someone else say Leda is pregnant, I may have cried. I won't completely only write about pregnancy, but it will be here. If you have to stop reading, believe me, I understand. I always read the pregnancy blogs because I was just so happy that it could happen for them. But I also know just how hard it is to read them. Long story short, whatever your decision I understand.

I feel like I need to tell you all how terrible I am feeling, guilty even, that it is me and not all of you. I also feel terrible because I am scared to death and not scared all at the same time. I haven't been feeling nervous but I have also tested 2 times a day every day since Saturday. I am out of test now and the fear is kicking in. I realized that the fear is caused by the fact that I won't be able to test tomorrow morning first thing and know it's true. I will be stopping at the $Tree when I pick up Papa Murphy's pizza tomorrow, they are next door, lol.

I have an appointment for an ultrasound on March 26 at 6w4d then if all is well my OB history on April 6 at 8w and another appointment for ultrasound on May 4 at 12w. That's pretty much it for right now. I will continue testing daily just to be sure of things. The line has been getting darker so that is good news. It was pretty dark at 12 DPO today so I am really happy with that! I will update more later.


AKD said...

Oh, Leda, you're so kind. I worry about the same things - I hate making others feel bad (if I do) by posting about my pregnancy, so I also hope that people will skip reading if it hurts them.

I'm just so happy for you - and can't wait until 3/26 and 5/4!!

cheryllookingforward said...

I also feel bad talking about my pregnancy. I know so many people are still struggling... I'm still afraid and I actually had to stop myself from reading bloge with late losses because they scare me so much.
But, hey, I want to read every single little thing about your pregnancy. So when you write, you know you have us out here!

sonja said...

I know what you mean about feeling guilty, but even if some people are (understandably) feeling bummed or disappointed from your news, please know that everyone is HAPPY for you and for your baby. I think that was always my feeling when I read about an IFer getting pregnant -- a sadness that it wasn't me but also a big celebration for the girl who had finally gotten her longed for BFP. You should enjoy every second of this!!

Suzy said...

OMG how did I miss this news!! Congratulations! I've been a bad blogger not checking in on people. Oh wow such good news! xxxx