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Back into the swing of things.

I can't believe how long it has been so I posted last. I feel ashamed. I also feel confused because I don't know what I want this place to be anymore. I'm figuring things out. I am toying with the idea of a parenting with RA (rheumatoid arthritis) blog. But I want to put other things here too. Maybe I just need to be done here and move on to a new. I will put a link to the new one once I get it up and going.

Delia is 8 1/2 months and absolutely perfect.
Blaine will be 8 next month.
I am addicted to the RHO anywhere.
I have lost 83 pounds since I got pregnant.
Life seems pretty wonderful right now.

Thanks so much to all of you who were so much support. I am constantly reading but my google account acts all wonky all the time when I try to comment.

Holy shiznit

It has been for-effing-ever since I posted last. I'm doing so now from my iPhone which both ducks and is awesome.

Little Miss Delia is doing great from everything we know. A few weeks ago she decided to test us and see if she could go ahead and come out but we quickly changed her mind with procardia and bedrest.

29 weeks 6 days
The good: she's still in there. She moves a ton. She will be here in no time.

The bad: contractions. She's frank breach.

The ugly: I am an emotional freaking basketcase. I started freaking out yesterday when I realized that in5 weeks, if she comes she won't be stopped. Scarey.

23 weeks 3 days

First of all I am excited to have made it this far. I seem to be having lots of Braxton Hicks contractions. I talked to my OB about the whole scar tissue and breastfeeding deal and she said that I need to make an appointment with the Nurse Practiotioner who is also the laction consultant there. I am hoping things will work though. I seem to only leak from 1 breast and it is the one that doesn't have the big scar tissue on it so I am sort of freaked about that. We have an appointemnt on Monday for another ultrasound to check her heart and stuff out and make sure she's still a girl, lol. Starting next week I will be at the office every week for the rest of my pregnancy. Kind of scarey to think about.

I have a new background and I am super excited about it! I need to get back to blogging and be fun again, lol. There are a few bloggy ladies that I am just so excited for so I thought I'd tell you to go over and share in the joy they have going on. Sonja just brought home Liam a few days ago, the first of her quads to come home and that is huge. They will all be home before she knows it! Rachel just got the call last week that her family was growing by 1 and her story of those first days is just amazing.

The good: Still the movement. I love it. It makes everything so real. It helps me feel better about things when I get worried and it reassures me that she is in there and growing. my belly is growing and I love it. You can tell I'm pregnant more and more all the time.

The bad: I have so much trouble getting to sleep. I just can't get comfortable. Between my belly and my flare that won't quit I just can't seem to be comfortable enough to not toss and turn all night long.

The ugly: The heartburn. It effing sucks.

22 weeks 3 days

I am turning into a bad blogger. I am not good at commenting these days and as you know just generally sucking at updates. Today I read quite a bit of good news on some of the blogs I read and want to just tell everyone that I am thinking of you and really, really hoping that things work out for you ladies and your families!

The good: D moves all the time. Like, all the time. She is going to be a partier, lol.

The bad: heartburn, not being comfortable when I try to sleep.

The ugly: moodiness. Yay.

21 weeks 3 days

Things have gotten boring. I feel like there is nothing really to post. I have my very first completely routine (I hope) OB appointment this Thursday. No ultrasound, no freaking out, no pelvic (fingers crossed). Just measurements, weight, heartbeat, and questions. I have a few for them. My biggest concern is breastfeeding. I had nipple piercings and they are closed up but the scar tissue isn't so great so I am a little concerned as to whether it will work out or not. Also we have a mini-vacation planned for September but I start weekly progesterone injections in a few weeks and I will be around 32 weeks for that trip and I just need to be sure that we will be OK for a trip around 5 hours away. I will also start having weekly growth ultrasounds and non-stress tests at 32 weeks so it should be very busy!

The good: D moves alllllll the time! T even feels her sometimes. You can tell that I am pregnant, that is if you know me. We have been shopping and gotten her some really cute stuff. I will have to post pictures of some of it along with her bedding set.

The bad: heartburn. This girl better have a crapload of hair is all I can say.

The ugly: My emotions. I have banned myself from many things, like country music and lots of shows because I can't stop crying sometimes.

18 weeks and what I've got a'cookin'...

We had our anatomy ultrasound yesterday. It was a Level 2 which pretty much meant that the MFM OB did part of it. She got all the measurements she wanted and said things are looking great!!! We also found out that we are expecting a sweet little girl!

The good: we know what we're having, Shopping and BEGIN!!! I feel good. Hungry all the time, but good. She moves around quite a bit now, it feels super wierd.

The bad: nasal congestion. It sucks!!!!!!!

The ugly: I tend to be a hormonal mess, lol.




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This is why people google dream interpretations

PREGNANCY!!!

I have been having lots of odd dreams about the baby. I never go full term in my dreams. The baby is either born at 28 weeks or 32 weeks but is completely healthy and can go home immediately. I dream of a little girl with dark hair and dark eyes just like T and she is absolutely beautiful! The dream I had a few nights ago she was born at 32 weeks and she was 15 pounds 7 ounces. What the eff!?!?!?!

I am pretty sure that these are all fears of mine and maybe my mind telling me that everything will be alright no matter what happens. I am terrified of early labor and the baby being in the NICU because it absolutely sucks and I don't want it to happen again. I would love, love, love a girl and even though my intuition is saying girl, I fear that it will be boy because I say I want a girl. Not that I don't want a boy too. Another sweet little cutie who loves his Momma like crazy! The huge baby thing, I know that is because this GD thing has me scared that our baby will be huge. We keep joking that Blaine will be sharing clothes with the baby it will be so big.

We will see our baby in less that 48 hours!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

17 weeks, almost half.way.there.

We are sosososososososo clooooooosssssse to half-way there that I can taste it, lol. Literally. Because you better believe that I will be scarfing down sweets and carbs as soon as this kid gets out. We have our Level 2 ultrasound next Thursday at 17w6d. We are hoping that we can gind out the sex that day.

There was a small scare on Tuesday. I was having some pretty intense cramps and a few days before had a little mucousy blood. I called the OB and they said to get in right away. They did an ultrasound to check my cervical length and all that good stuff. Cervix looks great, no funneling so woohoo for that! We took a peek at the baby and it was so cute, it has grown so very much. We got a picture of it's head and torso and a little leg. The spine stood out so perfectly. Then we got a picture of and arm and hand. I love this kid!

Something that I hadn't really thought about happening was the jealousy that I still feel toward women who get pregnant so easily or on accident. I just can't help it. Atleast it's not towards people I know these days. Mostly the girls from high school who are 23 or 24 and on kid number 4. Fucking 4! Are you shitting me? Anyway. It's weird, kind of makes me feel odd.

The good: Little one is moving around. Not a ton, mostly just rolling around. We are super close to knowing the sex of the baby. We already have names all picked out!

The bad: As usual, constipation. I can't sleep on my stomach comfortabley. I have constant pelvic pain, I guess since things are spreading.

The ugly: My emotions are out of whack big time. Anything can make me wanna cry. We saw a dead dog on the road a few days ago. I teared up because it had a collar on and since it had a collar on that meant it was someone's pet and somebidy was gonna be so sad when they realized their doggy wasn't coming home. I'm crying a little now just thinking about it.

16 weeks. wow.

For some reason I can't believe I am 16 weeks, we are less than 2 weeks from having our Level II and hopefully finding out the sex. B is super excited about the baby and constantly thinking of it. He even wanted to rent it a movie at Blockbuster a few nights ago. I am sooooo excited!!!!

The good: My belly is getting bigger and harder. I feel the baby, in fact I just felt a big thump. I love it. it seems like I get flutters when T touches my belly, I think maybe becuase my heart starts beating faster or something, lol.

The bad: Constipation is back and with it has come cervical bleeding every now and then. Freaks. me. out.

The ugly: I am moody. Yes, still.

I've got it

Gestational Diabetes that is. Just waiting to get ahold of the Diabetic Counselor tomorrow for an appointment. Lucky me, I get to test my glucose 4 times a day and be on an awesome ass diet.

15 weeks

I went yesterday for my 3-hour test. Sooooo boring. I did read almost all of "Where the Heart Is" for the zillionth time during my 1 hour waits. I am super hopeful that I will know something today but they told me it may be Tuesday because of the holiday weekend. Even if I pass I still have to be on a "No concentrated sweets" diet for the remainder of the pregnancy. I am not looking forward to that, but whatever I have to do to keep the little one safe and keep me from giving birth to a 10 pounder.

The Good: We have our Level II in 3 weeks. YAY!!! I am feeling better, a lot better.

The Bad: Heartburn. Wow, I get it when I drink water or eat spicey food or somehting sweet or salty. I have it allllll the time.

The ugly: A few of my stretch marks are turning red again, which means they are starting to stretch and my belly is itching like crazy!

A few belly shots

Everything is starting to shift and lift and round out more. These are from today at 14wk 5d.

A big fat fucking fail...

I had my early Gestational Diabetes test yesterday. I totally expected to pass it. I was all cocky, assuming things were going to be perfect. I asked when I would hear back and she said 1-2 days and not at all if things were good.

Guess who got a call today?! Me. I had a voicemail and totally was hoping that maybe there was some sort of billing question or someone saying I needed to redo it because the lady messed up or something. Nope. Instead "Michelle" told me that my level was 156 and the cutoff is 135. Also not all to great since I had been fasting (not on purpose) and it was still that elevated. Now my Thursday morning will be spent having the 3 hour test done. I have to watch my sugar and carb intake until then.

I would love to say I can't believe I actually failed, but I can. I'm overweight and and technically had it with B's pregnancy but I had a shitty OB who didn't really care. I will keep you updated!

14 weeks

Sometimes I have this moment of "Holy shit, there is really a baby in there, this is seriously happening". It is an amazing moment each and everytime it happens

There has been some really awesome news on a few bloggy friend's ends and i couldn't be happier for them!

There was something else I wanted to put here but I cannot remember it.

The good: I am starting to feel the little one move. It's just little flutters and it made think I had bubble guts the first time, but it's there and it's OUR BABY! My belly is becoming actual preggo belly, like it won't suck in anymore and it still sticks out when I lay down. We have an ultrasound appointment in 4 weeks. We should find out the sex hopefully then as well as see whats up in the cervix department.

The bad: Not a lot to report here. I thought I could eat but I am back to small portions several times a day. Also, I can't get enough ice cream. It is bound to be the death of me. I have my first GD test on Monday and up until now it hasn't made me nervous. Now i am kind of freaking out. T keeps making fun of me when I eat things telling me that it is going to make me fail the test.

The ugly: Nada.

13w 3d OFFICIALLY 2nd TRIMESTER!!!!!!!!

I am pretty pumped about this!!! This is the most conclusive answer to when a trimester starts, every 13.3 weeks. So today, trimester 2 is here!!!!!!!!!

The good: I am actually able to eat a full meal now. Up until Saturday I could only eat maybe half of whatever it was that we were eating. Then Saturday I was hungry and I ate a lot, lol.

The bad: I still haven't gone into RA pregnancy remission, I am guessing that means it won't be happening for me. Boo. Constipation is so fortunately stepping back into my life and that makes me a little nauseous all the time.

The ugly: I seriously need an attitude adjustment. I can't keep from saying what is on my mind to people, even complete strangers. Watch out!!

12w 3d

For Mother's Day I got a baby monitor and 2 cards. It was a good day. It feels a little more productive to get something that isn't just cute, lol.

The good: I'm feeling good. No more headaches really so that is awesome.

The bad: Nausea and a horrible, horrible RA flare.

The ugly: I am an emotional wreck.

The proud Momma delivers!

I told you I would post pictures and now I am! As a majorly proud Momma I will post all 5 of them, lol.

11 weeks 5 days

I had an ultrasound and my first "real" appointment with my OB yesterday. Everything with the baby is looking great. Baby measured 11w4d with a heartbeat between 173 and 175. Our new OFFICIAL due date (because it has been seen 2 times at an US) is now November 19, 2010. YAY! It was overall a good appointment, we had lots of questions answered and got lots of reassurance from her. She said that I will have the 1-hour glucose test in 3 weeks because I was on metformin, even though it was just for ovulation not diabetes. In 6 weeks we will have a Level II ultrasound and since I will be almost 18 weeks we will hopefully find out the sex. I will then have monthly ultrasounds to check my cervix and all that fun stuff to be sure that I don't start dilating too early. It is pretty crazy that in 6 weeks we will know what we are having(hopefully). I will post pictures later today.

The good: EVERYTHING!!!

The bad: nothing this week.

The ugly: I got nothin.

10 Weeks

We have come farther than last year!!!! Yay!!!!!!!!! We are 1 week away from seeing our baby as well as 1 week from telling B that he is going to be a big brother and then telling everyone else. I had other stuff all typed up then lost the post so if I remember it I will be back.

The good: The usual.

The bad: I smell everything that smells bad so strongly!

The ugly: I am super moody.